So this is what 33 feels like. Un-fucking-believable.
If you would have told me a few years ago that I would be here right now I’d tell you to take your meds. Climbing mountains?! Hell no, are you crazy?!
When your young you think of being in your 30s as old. Living in a youth obsessed culture there’s a lot of pressure to feel ashamed of your age. I say fuck that. I’ve never felt better in my life. I’m at my absolute best and I’ve never been more happy and comfortable in my own skin as I do right now. I’ve been through Hell and back, I’ve fought for everything I have, and I’m so proud of the woman I am and who I continue to become.
So this is 33, and this is Gorgeous, Mt. Gorgeous… the first time I attempted Gorgeous was 8 months ago, I was brand new to outside climbing and it was my first outdoor lead. I got to the crux and didn’t have the mental strength to pull the bulge. I avoided it for a long time and decided to give it another go the end of last year. Still wasn’t ready for it and it didn’t go. I don’t know why but for some reason it just got in my head. I’ve done other climbs harder than this but for some reason this one plagued me. The mental struggle is real. I thought about it for months knowing that one day soon I’d have to face it again.
Gorgeous 5.10a Malibu Creek July 2017
Yesterday was the most beautiful day in Malibu Creek I’ve ever seen. Following weeks of rain the bone dry creek was flooded and blooming with life. The weather was absolutely perfect, I was with amazing friends who got the whole crag to sing happy birthday to me with candles and macaroons, and I just knew I had to go for it.
We meet again Gorgeous.
I felt good, mentally strong. I made the choice to give it my all and I wasn’t coming down until I finished it. That feeling when I pulled the bulge and made it through the crux was the best feeling in the world. I can’t think of a better way to spend the last day of an awesome year. 33 is gonna be even better.
Birthday surprise at the crag. I love my friends.